Thursday, March 29, 2007

Today, I Celebrate!!!!

You may need to bare with me today...I am very excited!

I have broken my physical reformation into mini and major goals.
Mini goals are 5lb. markers, major goals are 20lb. losses, celebrated with shopping.

As of today, I have officially "earned" my first piece of clothing! I have lost 20 pounds since I started this, 9 weeks ago! That is a HUGE victory for me! I am very excited...2 ten markers on the scale are now part of my past...Thank you God.
On the surface, this could seem like a shallow victory, but I'll let you in on a little history. You will then be able to see the bigger picture here. I was a "pudgy"adolescent...one nick name at school was "Porky"...Don't laugh, it still smarts.

When I got interested in boys...12...I decided to do something about this, and I did. Not at all in a healthy way...major starvation mode. I got so small over the next 8-10 months, that my mom kept threatening to take me to the doctor and make me gain. I was terrified about that, so literally kept my weight one pound over her "bottom line"...for years. All through poor or no eating though. I eventually broke out of that anorexic state...gained a little bit more weight...but was a little more healthy with my diet.
Due to that brush with Anorexia, I have stayed away from diets ever since.
God had really been dealing with me about how to do this in a way, that I would reach my goals, but would be responsible and forever...something sustainable.
So, I nervously started out...really wanting to see results, but be able to Glorify Him in them...I couldn't glorify God in my weight loss, if it was done through abuse. Besides, I have little girls watching my every move, and I do not want them following deadly patterns.
So, here I am at my first major goal...I'll update you when I hit the second.
For now, I am so thankful that God has showed me what foods are a problem for me, and given me the self control to say no to them....and the peace to know when I make an educated choice to splurge...Easter will bring me Easter cream Eggs...I can expect a small increase, but be confidant that it is just a couple day setback...and I can keep going.

Oh! I wanted Amy to know that she doesn't need to worry about those McFlurrys...they are probably my favorite ice cream treat...though I am not big on ice cream.
I took Jianna to Mc Donalds end of last week, had my salad, with my dressing...and thought long and hard about "Easter Cream Egg McFlurrys". I decided that we would do our shopping, and if I still really wanted one, I would go through the drive through with her on the way home. I'd buy one for us to share. That's what we did. I waited until Sunday to weigh in again, and was down 2 1/2 pounds!!!!

I was tempted right then and there to add Mc Flurrys to my eating plan! Alas, I have gotten it out of my system, and am waiting for Easter...for the whole egg!

So, yes I celebrate achieving a goal today...not with food (as I was taught)...shopping...that only hurts Mark and Dave Ramsey!
I also celebrate something that can't be seen, that God is giving me victory over a lie ...probably a few of them from the enemy...NOW THAT"S WORTH CELEBRATING!!!!

10 comments:

Holly said...

YIPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats to you! I am proud of you for doing this the healthy way. I can't wait to see your new outfit!!

Cheryl said...

I celebrate with you my friend!!!

Can't wait to see your new outfit. I would be hard to loose weight in your home because you are such a great cook!!!!

Tamar said...

Jen,
You are really an inspiration!
I was so glad to have time to chat on our car ride to and from Toronto and get to see All the Wonderful Ways God was Transformed You! I look forward to more of it from Your bloggings!
You are a Treasure!
Tamar

Tamatha said...

Wow Jen! That is SO kewl! Good for you! You are an inspiration!:o)
I have a store to recommend to ya! Remind me later.

Amy said...

EXCELLENT!! I too, celebrate with you. Awesome job. There is no way but the healthy way.
As for the mcflurrys, I can't share mine..lol. It's all or nothing with me...lol.
And I too, always remind myself I have a little one watching me, so I am VERY aware of what I say about myself. Even if I don't think she is around, I don't say it b/c you never know with those kids eh? Popping outta nowhere.
Such great joy for you today!! Enjoy shopping!!!

Shari said...

Congradutations...You Go Girl!!!

I am really thrilled for you and know how hard your've worked and disciplined you have been. God longs for us to be balanced in all areas of our lives.

Forget Dave Ramsey.....as Wilma Flintstone and Betty Rubble would say.....Go Charge It! lol

I have decided to do this same reward system - every ten lbs. I haven't earned a reward yet, but it's coming!!!

Rhonda said...

Congratulations. That is a very big deal and certainly not shallow!!

I recommend Lisa Bevere's book, You Are Not What You Weigh. She also battled anorexia.

http://www.messengerintl.org/product.asp?id=BKL003

Anonymous said...

Great work girl. Mark told me he was very proud and thought you should buy 2 new clothing items. He is supporting you we ate a salad with our steaks and no potatoe or bread. Keep up the great.

Williams Family Blog said...

Way to go Jen!!!!!!!

I am so happy for you and your weight loss.

Say, if you want some company on a shopping trip give me a call......

Karen

Roxanne said...

Way to go!! You have worked really hard and deserve to celebrate!!