Thursday, March 29, 2007

Today, I Celebrate!!!!

You may need to bare with me today...I am very excited!

I have broken my physical reformation into mini and major goals.
Mini goals are 5lb. markers, major goals are 20lb. losses, celebrated with shopping.

As of today, I have officially "earned" my first piece of clothing! I have lost 20 pounds since I started this, 9 weeks ago! That is a HUGE victory for me! I am very excited...2 ten markers on the scale are now part of my past...Thank you God.
On the surface, this could seem like a shallow victory, but I'll let you in on a little history. You will then be able to see the bigger picture here. I was a "pudgy" nick name at school was "Porky"...Don't laugh, it still smarts.

When I got interested in boys...12...I decided to do something about this, and I did. Not at all in a healthy way...major starvation mode. I got so small over the next 8-10 months, that my mom kept threatening to take me to the doctor and make me gain. I was terrified about that, so literally kept my weight one pound over her "bottom line"...for years. All through poor or no eating though. I eventually broke out of that anorexic state...gained a little bit more weight...but was a little more healthy with my diet.
Due to that brush with Anorexia, I have stayed away from diets ever since.
God had really been dealing with me about how to do this in a way, that I would reach my goals, but would be responsible and forever...something sustainable.
So, I nervously started out...really wanting to see results, but be able to Glorify Him in them...I couldn't glorify God in my weight loss, if it was done through abuse. Besides, I have little girls watching my every move, and I do not want them following deadly patterns.
So, here I am at my first major goal...I'll update you when I hit the second.
For now, I am so thankful that God has showed me what foods are a problem for me, and given me the self control to say no to them....and the peace to know when I make an educated choice to splurge...Easter will bring me Easter cream Eggs...I can expect a small increase, but be confidant that it is just a couple day setback...and I can keep going.

Oh! I wanted Amy to know that she doesn't need to worry about those McFlurrys...they are probably my favorite ice cream treat...though I am not big on ice cream.
I took Jianna to Mc Donalds end of last week, had my salad, with my dressing...and thought long and hard about "Easter Cream Egg McFlurrys". I decided that we would do our shopping, and if I still really wanted one, I would go through the drive through with her on the way home. I'd buy one for us to share. That's what we did. I waited until Sunday to weigh in again, and was down 2 1/2 pounds!!!!

I was tempted right then and there to add Mc Flurrys to my eating plan! Alas, I have gotten it out of my system, and am waiting for Easter...for the whole egg!

So, yes I celebrate achieving a goal today...not with food (as I was taught) only hurts Mark and Dave Ramsey!
I also celebrate something that can't be seen, that God is giving me victory over a lie ...probably a few of them from the enemy...NOW THAT"S WORTH CELEBRATING!!!!

Wednesday, March 28, 2007


We all had a good laugh at Tamar and my adventure, now I thought I'd share some of the "meat" from the conference.

Our first service, pastor Jeff spoke, and guess what his topic was? "It's a New Season"
Once again, God is speaking corporately, as He speaks to our individual hearts. He is so good, and I always get such a kick out of these kinds of confirmations!

Instead of rewriting his sermons, I will give you point form highlights;

-God is not interested in "potential", but our heart. If we have potential, we can accomplish something...if our heart is humble, He can accomplish something...even if we have no potential.

-**Be prepared, in new seasons, God will show up and give you NEW instructions!**

-Listening and obedience are of extreme importance.

- Foundational elements of promotion are humility, and stewardship...what are we doing with what he has already given?

kneel at the cross and give up our will. Surrender self, and pick up HIS will.
...when I pick up His will, resurrection power comes.

-Pride will bring the resistance of God.
resistance of the enemy can be overcome...
resistance of God is IMMOVABLE...we must remain humble!

The second service was mostly impartation, and I don't have notes, because I was out on the floor through the teaching part....It was GOOD!

Final service was another confirmation...

**"Words will dictate your destiny. Fruit in season will only come, if you change your thinking and your words"**

- Words spoken, link me to Jesus Christ - connect through confession 0f your mouth

-Hebrews 3:1 and 4:14...hold on to your confession!

-Faith is connected to our words!

**don't ever be in a place, where the Lord uses the world to throw you into His will....**

God is speaking across this nation and the world...the same message. When there are this many confirmations, I know that I need to pay attention! God is establishing His Word, and I want to hear, understand, and obey. It's time to revisit some of the things God has been saying with reformation, change of seasons, and confession...This is a global message!
I thought you would all be encouraged, that truly the things God has been laying on our hearts, and asking us to lay down...are his will for us for this season.
I am getting all the more excited about the May conference...God is up to something!

Monday, March 26, 2007

Unconscious, but concerned husband...

If you read my last blog, you will find this follow up a good laugh...please pray for me!

It was 2:00 am, I had gone to bed not feeling very well, but was dreaming peacefully...and DEEPLY. As I am dreaming, I hear a distant voice: "sit up quickly".
I hear the same words a second time, and open my very sleepy eyes to see my wonderful...yet "quirky" husband sitting up looking at me.
I was alarmed by this point..."what's wrong?"
"Sit up quickly, I don't want them to crawl on you"
"that's NOT funny!"...and I almost pushed him out of bed.
I said: "why would you do that? That's cruel!"
He's not laughing, but insists he doesn't want them to crawl on me.

I am like, "What are you dreaming about?"
"Golfing......I'll have to spray the house before I leave..."

Memories come flooding back of our first year of marriage, now I get it. He's asleep!
Mark has a long history of talking, selling, preaching, making money in his sleep. Once he was even campaigning as prime minister!
17 years ago, our first year married, I was woken up to a similar situation. He was kneeling on the bed beside me, with an arm under my neck, and one under my legs, picking me up.
"what's wrong?"
"the chicken"
'the's burning"
"what chicken?"
"we have to turn off the chicken"

Now we had not had chicken that night, nor had I burned our supper to that point, but here I was being woken up, to turn off an imaginary chicken!
He wouldn't quit...finally I told him I'd already turned off the chicken, and he laid down and went back to sleep.
I have been having these conversations with an unconscious man periodically ever since!

So, I ask him (once again), when we wake up this morning..."what were you dreaming?"
"What? Nothing."
I am used to that response....
He can't figure out why I am so tired, and has no idea that I was unable to sleep for an hour afterwards.
It's one thing when God wakes you up at night, but an incoherent husband is quite another!

Although I was able to leave my adventure with the roaches, (not referring to you Tamar!), behind me when I left Toronto; it appears my husband was somewhat traumatized by my experience!
Please remember him in your prayers. ; )
I think I need a nap now....

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Billet with the Roaches...

I got a call late last week to join a friend (Tamar) for an adventure in Toronto. Since Tamar, had arranged for a billet, my sweet-about-to-be-golfing-for-a-week-in-a-lovely-resort-in-North-Carolina-husband said sure go.
Tamar and I had never spent time together, and this promised to be an adventure that I looked forward to connecting with her on...little did I know!
We set out with gorgeous sunny skies on Friday morning. Our hearts were set to receive all that God had for us over the next 2 days of services. Ahh! What could be better?

We'd been warned our accomadations were rough...that's OK, we'll pretend we are camping in'll be an adventure. I felt prepared...after all Tamar was armed with paper towel and Lysol! Plus a candle, in case it was stale...

NOTHING could have prepared me for what assaulted my senses as we walked through the front door. I have been to the mission field, and eaten and lived with people in poverty...I'd do THAT again in a heart beat.
Some boys had been living there, and were recently evicted...their stuff was still everywhere...clothes, broken mirrors and furniture...garbage...smells Tamar was able to identify through her nursing experience...but my "uneducated nose" was afraid to discern. There was a bathroom...shower worked/no shower curtain, but although it had been "cleaned", Tamar would testify otherwise. The sink did not work...we could brush our teeth with water from the tub.
We were educated on how we could use the bathroom without touching the toilet seat...I am very visual, so this turned out to be a real gut-splitter.

Our bubbly guide had already spent a night and let us know that it really wasn't that bad...
I panicked and called Mark...we were all set to book a hotel, but were afraid to offend our hosts...we chickened out.
Our bubbly guide prayed in the room Tamar and I would share...we thought...maybe we can do's only one night.

We went to the eve. service, trying to put the night ahead out of our minds...easier said than done! The service ended, the church was getting locked was TIME...
We decided to use the washroom at the church...and I decided I was going on a "pee fast" until the church opened at 9:30 the next morning.

I steeled myself...and bravely faced my adventure!
We were troopers...we'd been spieled rhetoric about humility...prep. for missions...(who said I was called to the garbage dumps?) We were not going to be so proud as to cause in the dark, we got some things and headed through some high metal gates to our adventure.

Our guide unlocks the door, and my senses reeled once again...
Then we turned on the lights...
It seems we broke up a party in full force, the bright lights blinded the TRUE home owners, and they scurried in every direction...

I am thinking there is NO WAY!
Our guide tried to convince us they would not be in our room....Tamar actually tries to make a barrier of Lysol across the thresh hold of our room...maybe they won't cross it.
I am getting sick, but we check the room anyway, maybe our guide is right....NOPE!!!! Tamar's barrier probably kept them from LEAVING our room. That's it! I am prepared to sleep in the car in a very unsafe neighborhood at this point...I would was clean! Offending anyone was no longer an issue.
Finally, it is almost midnight and we call Mark to find us a hotel...Tamar and Mark worked out the hotel...
All of my senses went into overdrive, and I began to heave...
Now, in the worst of flues, I don't throw up...only a little when I was pregnant.
I am praying by now, "God don't let me throw up here, I could never handle cleaning it up in this mess". I got outside and got air...OK, I can go in and get my stuff..I am picturing these critters invading my stuff and making their way home with me.
I get my stuff ready to take to the car, heaving the whole time...I rush for the night air...not a second too soon!
Mark has given us directions to a hotel about 35 min. away...I am exhausted, it is about 12:30, I am so nauseous...I just want to get out of here.
I get ready to take my things to the car at the back of the building...both gates are locked for the night! Tamar is trying to convince us and herself that she can climb these 7' fences to get the car...yeah, well what about the big white pit -bull-looking dog between the 2 fences!

We are situated in the middle of the block in a bad area of down town TO. I DON'T CARE!
Our guide waits with our stuff, as Tamar and I set out together to walk the block to get to our vehicle. Tamar is worried about muggers or something...she walked with her keys between her knuckles.
All I had was a lip gloss...not much help...I didn't care, I wasn't the least bit scared. I'd have taken on 5 massive muggers with guns single handedly AND WON in order to get away from the assault I'd already experienced on my senses. Goliath couldn't have stopped me!

Tamar convinced our guide to join us for a clean bed and a clean shower...I was not as focused on being charitable...I just wanted to be able to breathe...far away from here.
We found our hotel, I crashed's now after 1:00...and I need my sleep. I had to pray so I wouldn't be inundated with giant critters in my dreams...Thank you God...I slept well.

I admit I am a real girly-girl...but come on...would any of you "humbled" yourselves to have a pajama party with the roaches?

No Mark, this is not part of the "equal money/equal time" fact, I think I will need time in a five star hotel to truly heal from my adventures with Tamar!

What a way to really get to know each other though! We did have fun, thanks Tamar!
Next time, let's try something less challenging like , oh I don't know....climbing Mt. Everest!

Tamar has a must read poem on her blog about our adventure....check it out!

Thursday, March 22, 2007

My China...

Not so long ago, I had a dream. In that dream, a man was holding up pictures of different countries and saying the name of the country. He held up one picture, called it by a different name and as I glanced at the picture, I said..."that's MY China".
Immediately I was transported there...

The rest of the dream was set in China, and had to do with God calling me to leadership in Intercession. My response to the map of China in the dream, has really stuck with me...

"That's MY China..."

I truly LOVE China, and have for as long as I remember...I have not yet been, though I have a deep desire to go. Hopefully soon.

In the mean time, I have collected some photos that capture some of what I love about China....Isn't she BEAUTIFUL?....

I want to cry when I think of her...and see the beauty that God has created in the landscape, and the people.
Here's a glimpse of a place that God has so put in my heart...enjoy!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Spring...A New Season...

"For lo, the winter is past, the rain is over and gone. The flowers appear on the earth; The time of singing has come, And the voice of the turtledove is heard in our land.The fig tree puts forth her green figs, And the vines with the tender grapes Give a good smell."Song of Solomon 2:11-13

Winter has been a very interesting, very out of the ordinary season. Both in our earthly environment, and also in areas affecting us very personally.
Most of us have had some very pleasant and some very difficult things going on.

A group of us...mostly bloggers, have just completed a 21 day reformation. An effort to create new, positive habits in various areas of our lives. Some were physical in nature, and some more spiritual...but all were things that God had laid on our hearts to give to Him for change.
it's been so great to watch this group face obstacles in their lives, and meet them head on. Some times we failed...or chose not to fight; at those times there was a rally cry that seemed to go out, and there would be enough encouragement, to start fresh. We sometimes, climbed huge mountains, and we cheered each other on the whole time. There was a lot of laughter, and a few tears, and lots to think about and absorb.
The underlying current in all of it though, was transparency...being very real with one another....sometimes taking chances. For me, it has all been very worthwhile. I have come to see, respect, and enjoy this group on new levels.

Coming out of a long hard season, and being encouraged daily...often by the simplest of things...often not even directed at me personally...but God used these things ...and these wonderful people. I am thankful for every one of them, and I am so pleased to see so much growth in each of them as well.
So here we are, the first day of Spring, and I have become an official "BLOGGER"...I have taken chances, I have been very stretched...I have had some wonderful victories....and I have become connected to a group of people who are all seeking hard after the same passion...our God, and His complete will for each of us.

21 Day Reformation is officially is winter...In all that this season has required of me... I am thankful. Thankful because my character has been built and strengthened, and dare I say, I am just a little bit more like the one I love and serve.

All in all, winter has been good...and relatively short...BUT Thank you LORD that it is SPRING.
I SOOOO look forward to all that this new season holds for me...and for the other reformers that God has brought in to my life. I know that there will be more stretching...more challenges to meet, more failures....but my HOPE is in HIM, and I know that He will be my faithful guide through all of it. I am choosing to look for the victories and spend more time rejoicing over those, than wallowing about the failures!

Thank you fellow reformers for helping to make the end of this season a very rewarding one.
I love you guys!

Friday, March 16, 2007

Rise up Women of God...

God is repeatedly, through many sources speaking this word to the women...(I believe around the world). God has put this so deep in my spirit for a very long time, and I am watching God perform his will around me...from friends, to women like Faytene Kryskow being put into places of authority both in the spiritual realm and in the world around us.
There is a new "women's movement" taking place...BUT THIS ONE WILL BE DIFFERENT!!!
This one is not about us, and our rights, this is about God doing what he Sovereignly wants to do here on earth through us. THIS MOVEMENT IS ONE OF TRUE SUBMISSION, FROM THIS PLACE GOD is BRINGING AUTHORITY. The ones you will see rise up in God's authority, will be the ones who have lived a life of Godly submission, and who are not even looking for position or authority...they will be the ones God uses because their hearts are tender before Him, and they want Him more than anything on earth.


Men...we need you. Don't feel left out. You are a huge part of this, and God is using you as well. You need to get a picture of what God is doing in women right now, so that you can come along side us...we need your strength, your experience, and we need you support. Both in prayer, and as our "husbands, fathers, brothers, leaders". God may ask some of you to "push" some of us women along. Sometimes, it is easier for us to stay in the background...even though God may be positioning us differently. We need you to labor along side us, and as we birth this next phase of God's Kingdom on earth...we need you right there beside us.
When I gave birth in the natural to each of our four children, there was nothing and no one I needed more than Mark. As I would enter the final stage of childbirth, I needed Mark's face right in front of my face. Literally, during our last daughter's birth, I had Mark in a head lock and refused to let go until Jianna was born. This was very funny to those who witnessed it, but for me it was the difference between making it through the birth or not....and Mark knew that.

Women, we can't do this alone, we need our men. God will be giving you support and strength through the men that He has placed in your life, so hold on tight to them.

The following is a word given by Kim Clement, and it was such a confirmation to me of what God had already put on my you read, let God deposit His seed in you that you will , in due season, give birth to His promises.

The words in color or bold and italics, are the things that God highlighted to me...they are not like this in the original word.

God said, "I'm looking to women again to bring forth and to birth what will change a generation"
The Spirit of God says, "You are surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses--the greats of yesterday that stood out amongst men, amongst royalty, and made a difference--they are surrounding you. For there was a sound in each one of their spirits when they faced the giants of their time--that sound exists in this generation of women," say s the Lord of Hosts.

"This sound is a sound of tenderness; this sound is a sound of bold gentleness. This sound is a sound that has petrified the powers of hell, for this same sound existed within Esther. The same sound existed within Deborah. The same sound existed in Mary when the Rock came forth, and satan has watched the women of this generation and said 'no more,'" but the Spirit of God says, "they will arise, and when they arise, they will bring forth the Rock, Christ Jesus again!"
As a prophet, I have heard the sound--In this day, and in this year of acceleration--women suddenly accelerating and touching the untouchable, and reaching the unreachable. That's what I saw and God said, "Tell these women, you are the instigators and the initiators of this movement that is about to touch the entire earth."
"It has been some time now," says the Lord, "that I have focused My attention once again on the women to bring forth the Word--the Rock. It has been a while now, that I have looked for a sound to come from a place where women would arise not with temperament, but with character and with virtue. And a sound that would come from them for one reason, 'God, Your will be done on earth as i t is in Heaven. And Lord, what You are dictating in Heaven right now, we want to perform on earth,' this is their prayer."
And God says, "There's been a sound that I've been waiting for, and this year was the year that I designated to bring forth women of great virtue and of great power. Some of you have been locked away; some of you have been bound. Some of you have been freed to the point of now understanding the bondage of others. But this is not the question at hand today."
The Spirit of God says, "Do you know that there is inside of you--about to be born that which has been there for a long time, for a long, long time," says the Lord. "And this time as women who worship come forth," God said, "there has been a quickening--something is moving inside the spiritual womb." Now God says, "This place has been transformed into a delivery room."
God says, "No, you will not walk from this place saying, 'I received much.' But you will walk from this place saying, 'I delivered something; I delivered something.' A delivery room, as you know, is a place of pain and a place of stress where there is blood," but God said, "in the midst of all of this, once the sound of life comes forth from the womb," God said, "something new, something fresh begins to take place in the atmosphere."
God said, "I'm looking to women again to bring forth and to birth what will change a generation. You have not gathered together in vain. What has happened, is you have brought forth and I hear the sound of a child being born. I hear the sound of a child being born. From your spiritual womb a movement shall take place," says the Lord, from this house.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Laughter really is good medicine...

I was sitting here very frustrated this evening. A number of things could be blamed for the frustration. Supper hour was kind of the final was one of those nights...none of you may be able to relate, but the kids were all at each other....mostly about who was going to sit where. We actually have assigned seating to avoid this conflict. Tonight three of my four traded spaces all very calmly...then the fourth child shows up and doesn't like any of it. I stopped all negotiations and the peace talks which had begun to heat up were silenced as MOM laid down the law. Complete with 4 kids going to their own bedrooms for the rest of the eve. if another word was said about the whole thing. (Admittedly, I was secretly hoping they would keep it I would have the guaranteed peace of them being separated for the eve.) Yes, I am one of those mom's who ends the democratic process rather abruptly when I can see war on the verge of breaking out. I then switch hats to that of the dictator, shut down the war....and usually feel like the bad guy when it is all over. In the end I was the one sitting here on the verge of tears telling God that I don't like feeling this way, and I needed Him to help me change how I was feeling. By this point Mark and Jonathan are gone off together....where else...STARBUCKS...and the younger three headed out to shoot hoops and jump on the trampoline. I sat here feeling somewhat miserable, when I heard it...
My daughter Maria has the most incredible laugh...I can't even describe it. It's not a giggle or a belly laugh....I don't know, but I have never heard another laugh like it, and it is so contagious! Michael and Maria were getting Jianna to do silly things on the trampoline, and she was all too willing to oblige them. Maria was in hysterics...
Finally, I was able to smile, and then laugh to myself...and the frustration lifted.
Hearing my oldest daughter's laughter was just the medicine that I needed tonight...thank you Maria, and thank you God!

"A merry heart doeth good like a medicine..." Proverbs 17:22

Monday, March 12, 2007

Jon gets a job...

My oldest son Jonathan was offered his first job today....if you don't count newspapers...and mom chores.
He will be working in the pro shop of one of the local golf courses...I am very excited for him. It'll be a fun environment, and he will learn a lot. God is good and His favor is on our children too. Jonathan really wanted a summer job, but is still pretty young, so there aren't as many options as there are for an older student. Mark and I had some opinions about the kind of environments we did and did not want him to be in for his first look at the world as an employee.

He was supposed to hear a couple of weeks ago, so we assumed he had not gotten the job and were going to try some of the other courses...then the call came today.
For me as mom, it is a little surreal...I am very proud of him, yet I also know that first jobs can get interesting. So my heart is a little torn. In the end, I have to trust that all of the toilet scrubbing, vacuuming, helping out with younger siblings that we have required over the years; coupled with what we hope is a solid work ethic, will be a part of a solid foundation for this new phase of Jonathan's life. Now, I must trust my oldest baby to the Lord, and what he desires to bring into Jonathan's life to refine him for his future. As much as I love my son, I know that My God loves Him more, and I guess it's time for me to let him spread his wings just a little more, and practice flying.
God, Help this mother's heart, as you help my firstborn venture one step closer to his destiny in you.

I do have one thing I do not understand is it possible to have a child entering the work force...even part time...if I am still 18! I think I need more help than I realized.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

New Life in the Spring...

I Love Spring!
Isn't it awesome to see the signs of winter melting, and the promise of new life bursting all around us?
Even yesterday, when it rained all day, I felt great, because the spring rains melt away the snow, and bring new life once again. Such an awesome process. As I type on a lazy Sunday afternoon; my husband is napping, Jonathan is off with a friend working on a project, and I convinced Michael, Maria, and Jianna to enjoy this beautiful day. They are out jumping on the trampoline and enjoying the warm sun.

I had such an urge for ice cream today....not even a typical desire for me...but the weather just made it feel like it was time to celebrate all that this wonderful new season is unfolding.
(My practical side....resisted the urge though, and came home to make tea instead!)
Even without ice cream I am bursting with excitement this afternoon...I see the people all around me coming out of hibernation, and beginning to feel the freedom of life in the Spring.

I also feel this in my spirit....I have felt that March is a pivotal month for many of us. I feel like we have been in our time of hibernation and some cold winds and barren months have brought a time of waiting and at times discouragement. Our seeds have been frozen in what seems a desolate ground....BUT IT'S SPRING!!!!

God is resurrecting us, and bringing new life to us and our circumstances. Just as in the season of Spring, we are in a tremendous season of hopes being renewed. Signs of new life are all around us, I encourage all of you to look around with me....the way you might dig under some old moldy leaves in order to find a beautiful tulip or crocus beginning to burst out of it's frozen state. God's beauty will be more evident in this new season, so start looking for what He's doing. As you begin to see more of the signs of Spring in the outside world...remember that He is doing the same thing in the spiritual realm all around and in us.

Thank You Father for this Beautiful new season, and help us to focus on you, and not the mess of melting snow and accumulated dirt.

Friday, March 9, 2007

More than a Conqueror....

Well, I am breathing a whole lot easier today!
I did the teaching in Oshawa last night. God was very good, as I knew He would was me I was worried about!
The night before, I had a soul dream all about not being prepared, and visiting the whole night and ending the eve. without teaching them a thing.
That was not the best way to start the day yesterday....I felt quite a bit of stress....Like I said before, Fear of man. I am not sure that I will ever come to a place where something like that does not cause me some level of stress or concern; but I am determined to never let it get in the way of doing what God asks of me. I have to say that once we were on the way to Oshawa, most of the stress was gone.

The whole thing went very well, some very good feedback...and it was so cool to see lives touched when they realized what their dreams meant. There were a few challenges, one being the public sharing of a few dreams that were actually pretty personal in nature. God was gracous in helping me deliver accurate interpretations that did't leave any one feeling too vulnerable. That was actually one of my concerns going, because I know that when someone has no idea what their dream means, they don't consider that it may be about something that would be better shared privately. God enabled me to share two possible ways to take the dream, and down played the personal one...but as soon as I said it, I knew that was it, and so did the dreamer.

Mark was very supportive, he even said he'd learned a thing or two...that might have been just to make me feel good!
It was good I brought him too, when we were running out of time, and they all had so much more they wanted input on, we offered my email address...they were having an awful time with the spelling of our last name....we might have been there all night, had Mark not simply suggested that I write it on the white board for them! See, what would I have done without him? Never even occured to me! Yes the blond hair is real!

I have to say...the best part for me personnally, was on the way home....knowing the kind of things that the enemy bombarded me with prior to doing the teaching; and knowing that God was faithful...and we did it! No matter how it had turned out, we did it, and for me that is a huge victory! I have a thing about me, because the enemy has taken such blows at me all of my life, I ABSOLUTELY LOVE overcoming! All I need to know is that it is him that is causing the attack, and I am more determined than ever to be victorious for Jesus' sake. I don't think that is a prideful thing, because I really know I might be an overcomer to some degree without Jesus, but because of Him, I am "MORE THAN A CONQUEROR"!!!! I LOVE being more than a conqueror! I really get a kick out of once again...THANK-YOU FATHER, YOU ARE ALWAYS SO FAITHFUL TO ME, AND I LOVE THAT WE DID THIS TOGETHER!!

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

More Stretching....

Why is it, when we think one thing....God is really doing another?

Take "reformation"...I am concentrating on one area that I want victory over. An emotional, mental and spiritual issue, made manifest in flesh. I want and need ALL of the fruit of the Spirit effectively at work in my life to be and do all that He is asking...including the biggy (for me) self control. This flows over into every discipline of my life like...prayer, fasting, disciplined consistant studying of the word...just to name a few.

So, as I am concentrating on this issue...the Lord comes through another door...(James Goll refers to this attribute of God as "Jehovah SNEAKY")...and decides I need another stretching. A whole other area! Like I don't have enough going on!

In the summer I was asked to join a friend to do dream interpretation along side a prophetic team, at an outreach in Oshawa. I was stretched....but God was so faithful...and I had a BLAST! It was amazing to watch grown men break down in tears as we gave interpretations that revealed God's love for them.
God used that to give me an excitement for prophetic evangelism.

This week I was contacted by the same friend and asked to help with the dream part of a prophetic course she was teaching.
I said yes because I knew I was to do the details off the phone and THEN let it hit me. AM I CRAZY!!!! Lot's of fear of man popping up all over the place....BUT I know God wants me to do this, therefore I know He will be very faithful....BUT I will be very glad when it is over with.

It's actually a small "hungry" group who have already got all the background on God speaking through dreams; I just need to do a little bit more teaching, and walk them through some interpreting. It's all realy just a precursor to wet their appetites the next time a Streams course comes through. Sounds simple....but I will be shaking in my boots!
I guess I should look at it that God has been gracious enough to let me teach a small group and not a couple hundred. THAT WOULD BE A STRETCH!

OK God, I told you "what ever, where ever, when ever" HHHEEELLLPPP!!!!

Saturday, March 3, 2007

God is Speaking!

This is lengthy, but a must read....WOW! God is doing it just like He said:
"...your sons and your daughters shall prophesy"

I copied and pasted the following word from "The Elijah List"...If you don't have time now check it out later....I have goose bumps!

He is useing the SIMPLE to CONFOUND THE WISE!!!!!!
Yeah God!....I love it when He does stuff like this!



If you hang around the Dream King,
You get into His dream stream,
You join yourself to His dream team,
And you do the Martin Luther King thing.

This was the poem of our heart when we launched the Justice House of Prayer (JHOP) in DC. A band of young people dared to dream and pray that another great move of justice would roll down like the waters of justice that swelled and swept aw ay segregation in the days of that great prophet Martin Luther King, Jr. Now, once again, like the sound of many waters, God is shouting: "I have a dream! Let the unborn go free! Let them be conceived in liberty, and let them be adopted in infancy."

Dr. Seuss Book

God is communicating His big dream of ending abortion in a most profound way through the dream stream story of Horton Hears a Who by Dr. Seuss. In February 2005, one of our youth, a 15-year-old girl at the Justice House of Prayer, had a dream. In the dream she saw a large, beautiful building with the words "The Who" appearing over it. She and her sisters entered the house and began to look throughout the building until they found the attic where there was a series of old books from the past that they knew would be needed for the future. She shared her dream with the JHOP team. I knew the dream was from God, but I wondered, "What is 'The Who,' and what are these old books?"

The next morning while pondering the dream, I received a remarkable email from a man in Kansas City that included a sermon he gave several years ago on what must occur for abortion to end. He felt led to send it to me, even though he thought it was unusual that the analogy the Lord had given him was based on the Dr. Seuss book, Horton Hears a Who. When I read this, I instantly connected "The Who" in the dream with "The Who" in the book. I was immed iately interested!

In this children's book written in 1954, we find an elephant whose name is Horton--and he is not a Republican! He is the prophetic Church with big ear s and a large trumpet. He can hear what no one else can hear--the sound of these little people called, The Whos, who live in the microscopic town of Who-ville.

In the book, we also find a kangaroo who wants to kill all the little Whos, because he cannot see or hear them. He doesn't believe they exist. Immediately the thought came to me, "The kangaroo is the kangaroo court!"--it stands for the Supreme Court who issued the death decree of ’73 in Roe v Wade, and legalized abortion. Wow! I realized that what I was reading was a parable from the past that was now going to be used en masse, for the endin g of abortion. The theme of the whole book amazingly is, "A person's a person, no matter how small!" And the remedy for the crisis is that every voice must be raised loudly and urgently to rescue all the little unborn Whos. With the kangaroo's death decree hanging over Who-ville, Horton implores the mayor "to CALL a big meeting, get everyone out, make every Who holler, make every Who shout!"

On 7-7-07, we are launching The Call again. We are summoning the church of the nation to cry out to God for the life of the unborn and the ending of abortion. So all the little Whos will gather at The Call and raise their voices, so that the kangaroo will hear and know that they are persons after all.

Quoted from Dr. Seuss' book Horton Hears a Who: (red color added by Lou Engle)

And Horton called back, "I can hear you just fine.
But the Kangaroo's ears aren't as strong, quite, as mine.
They don't hear a thing! Are you sure all your boys
Are doing their best? Are they ALL making noise?
Are you sure every Who down in Who-ville is working?
Quick! Look through your town! Is there anyone shirking?"

Through the town rushed the Mayor, from the east to the west.
But everyone seemed to be doing his best.
Everyone seemed to be yapping or yipping!
Everyone seemed to be beeping or bipping!
But it wasn't enough, all this ruckus and roar!
He HAD to find someone to help him make more.
He raced through each building! He searched floor-to-floor!

And, just as he felt he was getting nowhere,
And almost about to give up in despair,
He suddenly burst through a door and that Mayor
Discovered one shirker! Quite hidden away
In the Fairfax Apartments (Apartment 12-J)
(12 = government; J = Justice)
A very small, very small shirker named Jo-Jo
Was standing, just standing, and bouncing a Yo-Yo!
Not making a sound! Not a yipp! Not a chirp!
And the Mayor rushed inside and grabbed the young twerp!

And he climbed with the lad up the Eiffelberg Tower.

"This," cried the Mayor, "is your town's darkest hour!
The time for all Whos who have blood that is red
(A connection with the Blood)
To come to the aid of their Country!" he said.
"We've GOT to make noise in greater amounts!
So, open your mouth, lad! For every voice counts!"

Thus he spoke as he climbed. When they got to the top,
The lad cleared his throat and he shouted out, "YOPP!"
(Young Ones Praying and Prophesying)

And that Yopp...
That one small, extra Yopp put it over!
Finally, at last! From that speck on that clover
Their voices were heard! They rang out clear and clean
And the elephant smiled. "Do you see what I mean?...
They've proved they ARE persons, no matter how small.
(I believe the crux of the Abortion issue is the deception
from satan that says the unborn are not people at all.)
And their whole world was saved by the Smallest of All!"

"How true! Yes, how true," said the big kangaroo.
"And, from now on, you know what I'm planning to do?...
From now on, I'm going to protect them with you!"
And the young kangaroo in her pouch said,...

"...ME TOO!
From sun in the summer. From rain when it's fall-ish,
I'm going to protect them. No matter how small-ish!"

This Book Speaks of Abortion

Graciously, The Elijah List blasted this story February 16, 2005 (click here to view). Amazingly, the next day I received an email from a woman who said she read The Elijah List article and received three confirmations the following day at her Day Care Center. One child came in with a Horton Hears a Who backpack, a second was carrying a Who-ville doll, but the third--a ten-year-old boy--came to h er and said, "Ma'am, I had a dream last night. I dreamt of Horton Hears a Who, and all the little Whos were not saying YOPP; they were crying STOP!!!"

Oh, my God, there is a massive cry being raised up from the young ones of the earth, praying and prophesying, "STOP ABORTION, STOP! STOP! STOP!!!!!!!!!!" What are the chances of this divine confirmation? Those who read this are now held accountable. The whole Church must cry out now--STOP ABORTION!

Soon after, another man connected with me and said, "My ten-year-old daughter was reading Horton Hears a Who to her little brother." She came to her father and said, "Dad, I think this book is about ending abortion." That afternoon, he read The Elijah List article on Horton Hears a Who. This man now leads our Bound4LIFE ministry.

Again, amazingly, we found out that Fox Movies is doing a major motion picture in 2008, called, Horton Hears a Who, starring Jim Carrey--on the 40th year anniversary of the assassination of Martin Luther King, Jr. and the year of our critical 2008 election that must bring forth a true Pro-Life president. The Lord is shouting to the nation! Will we have ears to hear what the Spirit is saying?

A great convergence is upon us. If the Church understands the times and what God is seeking to bring forth, we can shout to the nation, before the movie comes out, that Horton Hears a Who is about the ending of abortion--so when millions of people watch the movie, they will all be thinking, "A person's a person, no matter how small--The Whos are the unborn!"

Can you see it? This is God's trumpet to the nation! God is marching out, shattering ideologies, and moving His great Mind and Heart into the earth. He moves the media and makes it His pawn. Oh, the brilliant Wisdom of God! He takes a book out of the archives of history that millions have read since 1954, pulls it out, and slams it into the present through a movie. The light penetrates the lie, the armor of the strongman is stripped away, the demon is named, and can now be cast out!

Oh God, we need a national exorcism of this spirit of death that has ruled over us for 34 years! Every voice must be counted. Buy the book! Spread it around! Start children's prayer meetings to end abortion! Support crisis pregnancy centers! May your voice be heard in your voting. Vote only for those who are truly pro-life, not those who flip-flop every few years for political expediency. Maybe God will use this movie to elect the next presi dent of the United States. We believe the abortion issue could become the dividing line in 2008, and God will weigh every candidate in the balance on this issue. Don't vote for those who you think can be elected, vote for those who have a Wilberforce conviction. Pray for Jim Carrey to be radically saved--he could shout to the world, "This movie is about ending abortion!"

A young woman had a dream knowing nothing of the movie or Jim Carrey's involvement. She dreamt that Jim Carrey was a Christian and that he was carrying a briefcase with two books in it. The first one was called, Shaping History Through Prayer and Fasting, by Derek Prince, and the second one was a book called, Mobilizing The Army of God. Could this man and this movie mobilize a pro-life army of young people who will fast and pray for justice?

Even this week, the front page of Time Magazine shows a hand with four different-sized fetuses resting on it. The article is saying that there are more crisis pregnancy centers than there are abortion clinics in America, and that abortion is at its lowest rate since the beginning years of when abortion was legalized. In the same magazine, there is an article about Jim Carrey, and he is seeking spiritual enlightenment, but doesn't know Jesus yet. Save him, God!!!

"It is time for all the Whos who have blood that is red to come to the aid of their country, he said." Suddenly, Dr. Suess kicks out of Who-ville and into national prophecy, not even knowing it. Christians must come to the aid of America carrying the blood of Jesus, which alone can wash away our sins. It is not enough that Jesus died; the blood must be applied to the doorposts of our national guilt. Oh, that millions of Christians would plead, "Jesus, I plead Your blood over my sins and the sins of my nation. God, end abortion and send revival to America." Go to to see how you can be a part of a mass movement of pleading the Blood of Jesus over our nation.

The YOPPS Must Be Heard

The voices of Jo-Jos just bouncing their yo-yos must now be heard. The Jo-Jos are Christians who are enjoying their comfortable careers, but are oblivious to the crisis. They are the youth in our Church youth groups who play with their iPods and who browse in their Windows. While living for entertainment, they have no idea that they were meant to be a part of God's great movement to end abortion! Their voices must be heard now!!! Let Myspace® and You Tube™ become their Eieffelberg towers from which they shout out their YOPPS and their STOPS.

Why would God give this dream stream to a group of young people who pray everyday in front of the Supreme Court calling on God to raise up righteous judges who will reverse Roe v Wade? To encourage hearts and release a movement through their prayers! So that it will be said:

"How true, yes, how true," said the big kangaroo, "and from now on you know what I am planning to do? From now on I am going to protect them with you!"

Brothers and sisters, let us believe that the Supreme Court will protect all the unborn little Whos, that God's big dream will come true, and that all the Whos' dreams could come true too.

It is profound that in the dream, the young lady saw not just one book, but a series of old books needed for the future. Read Horton Hatches an Egg. It is about a bird who wants to go play, rather than sit on her egg. So Horton, the elephant again, sits on the egg until the egg hatches. When the egg hatches, out comes, not a little baby bird, but an elephant with wings.

The moral of the story is this: he who cares for the unwanted child--that child will take on the nature of the one who cared for it. It is the spirit of adoption! God is calling the Church to adopt and care for the unwanted children in the nation. We have got to be Jesus' love answer. We can't just be pro-birth we must be pro-life!

Recently, a young man heard me preach on adoption. He came to me and said, "Two days ago, my wife and I adopted an African American child. Two weeks before, a lesbian couple was going to adopt that child, but the adoption process fell through." I was gripped by their testimony! That child's life will be changed forever!

God is shouting though Horton Hatches an Egg, "Who will care for the babies?" Homosexuals are adopting by the thousands. They believe that it is their time. Do they, perhaps, want the children more than we do?

Let the prophetic Church arise and carry the heart of Heaven! Let them hear The Call for united fasting and prayer on behalf of those who have no voice! Let the prophetic Church hear what the world can't hear, and may they blow the trumpet once again, declaring, "God has a dream, and we have His dream, and millions will be mobilized to become the river of justice rolling down again...."

Lou Engle
Justice House of Prayer
For more information on The Call 7-7-07, click here

Friday, March 2, 2007


I had to take a minute to share this.
I was checking out my friend Rhonda's blog when Jonathan came in.

Jon: "Blog?"
me: "I'm on Rhonda's....see your antics with dad have been read"
Jon: chuckles..."man you guys are all connected's like a club, a clan....a cult!"

As I laughed, I told him I had a new idea for a post! He was it!He did panic a bit, but I told him he could trust me not to get personal with his "stuff"...most of it! ; )

Something he said was kind of cool though..."you are all connected now".
That sounded good.
To be connected with a bunch of women who were all pursueing God, and writing about the joys and challenges of reformation. Reformation not just for the sake of reformation, but reformation that will cause us to grow and overcome and conquor. Reformation that will cause us to be stronger women, and more importantly, stronger in Him. feels good to be "connected".

Storm Day!!!

This is GOOD!

I awake to the joy of an unscheduled long weekend....and some very happy faces...three little ones...and a little later, a sleepy but very grateful teenage one checking to make sure we know.

It's almost 9:00, and the three younger children have enjoyed one of their favorite breakfasts....blueberry pancakes. The two oldest men of my life, (Mark-husband, Jonathan-my gentle giant-14 yr. old son) have decided that although the powers-that-be decided it was dangerous enough on the roads to warrant a complete school closure, they could de-ice the took hot water to get through the ice...and brave the elements for the "Oh so necessary" cup of morning Starbucks! YIGH!!!

Since my kids go to a walking school, they never get a storm day, and this is a very rare treat. I love that we are all sitting here in our PJ's, and that the most pressing thing on our agenda is what games we will play, and what I will feed them.
In the busyness of life, where even the weekends are full before they arrive...this is a gift.
An unscheduled break from the where to be, or take anyone. A family day!
Thank you God!

PS: Help me to still be thankful at 9:00 tonight! : )

Thursday, March 1, 2007

Jen's Blog?

My own Blog...hmmmm.
So why?
Is it because my dear friend Holly emailed a hint in passing ; )
Maybe to be one of the "cool" people mentioned in intercession Tuesday night.

As with some other things that happen in my life, I got here before I realized what "here" was. Yet, even as I question, I know that God has a purpose in even just feels like something I should do right now.
There is a nagging little thing that God keeps reminding me of. Something deep down that I know He has put there. A need to write. Write what? Many things have been suggested, and I have entertained ideas myself. I don't have the answer to that yet, but I feel like this is a path that just may take me to that answer one day. In the mean time, it's just time to write.
So, I will write about the things that God puts on my heart. Maybe in some of the seemingly simple, seemingly insignificant things that fill my mind and heart...I will come across something rather profound.
God seems to like to work that way, at least with me.
Today, this new journey begins...I will enjoy the trip...and try not to only look for the destination.