Wednesday, February 27, 2008
As many of you know, I have questioned of late, what it is I need to be doing with
"all my spare time".
I have prayed, talked with hubby, thought, questioned and I have interviewed for a couple of things that were not a right fit.
I have felt very selfish in my desire to DO something...preferably something meaningful.
If I had to work for the sake of the family budget, this would have been easier; but that was not the case it was for ME. So the idea of disrupting our lives to go back into banking etc. felt quite selfish.
In the middle of all of this, I got a call from Rhonda about a new position at Centennial, was I interested?
So, last Friday I interviewed for one of two "Hall Monitor" positions.
This seemed perfect, it was three hours a day, in the middle of the day 5 days a week and I would be off when my kids were off, PLUS it involved direct contact with the kids!
The interview went well, (I felt) and I was to hear on Monday.
Fleshly fears crept in, and I had a dream that I didn't get the job. I reasoned that if that were the case it didn't really matter as I didn't NEED the job.
Then Sunday while sitting in church, God began to speak,
"It's not about YOU needing the job, I need you to get the job".
All of a sudden it hit me, this isn't about ME, this is an answer to many prayers that God would influence and even take over our schools.
God was setting up a perfect scenario for me, personally yes, but there was more to it than that. I would have the opportunity to influence and speak into teens lives daily. I would get to be a set of eyes and ears for the school...but in so doing, I would be able to be Jesus' mouth, hands and heart as well. I could be praying for these kids as I walk the halls...AND get paid to do it!
After repenting for dropping the ball on what this was really all about and getting others to agree in prayer with me, I waited .
Monday came and went...I'm getting a little nervous.
It's a very busy office, he'll call on Tuesday.
Now I am questioning whether I heard God on this at all...
While I was at the gym this am, Mark took a call from the principal. He was going to call back, when hubby (in true Mark fashion), said;
"I know she was waiting for a message from you, Is there anything you would like me to tell her?"
The principal laughed, apologized for the delay and said, "yes, you can tell her she was successful and I will call back with the next step".
So, I am no longer a "kept" woman...well, not entirely at least.
Now, to break the news to my Johnny...he thinks this will be weird and I get that...but, he is a big boy and although he will be stretched, (as will I); I know he will be fine.
You know, knowing my son, the angels that were sent out to make this happen were probably wrestling in the Heavens between my prayers and my son's prayers. That's probably why I had to wait so long!
It's OK, God works all things together for BOTH of our good....and the good of the students of Centennial.
So, I have to rearrange my work out schedule, (might be wise to do more weight training) and I need to grow a thick skin while keeping a tender heart...So, all of your prayers would be appreciated. Primarily for favor with faculty and students alike, but also for Divine appointments.