"Look at Me! Watch me! Look at what I can do!"
We have all heard those statements from a child...we have all probably cried out those statements as a child.
A little later in life, that same child cries out..."I can't do it, don't watch"...(I usually pretend that I am not looking, because inevitably, the child CAN do it, and I don't want to miss it).
In either case, the focus is ME. I have become that child tonight.
It is almost 2:00 AM!!
As I went to prayer tonight, in preparation for sleep....I took my worries and concerns with me.
No, not to leave at the feet of Jesus...that's what I SHOULD have done....maybe I'd be snoozing away peacefully by now!
No, I took my worries to Jesus in an effort to some how convince Him ....or at least try (once again), that He really needed to rethink His plan for me.
I asked him (for about the 50'th time), if He was sure there wasn't someone better suited to the task....
He reminded me of a dream He gave me (not long ago), in answer to that same question.
I reminded Him of my inadequacies, I reminded Him of those who were so much more experienced....more anointed...more respected...more known....MORE EVERYTHING!
Panic began to set in as I tried so hard to talk God out of this....panic because I was doing a poor job of convincing God, but a perfectly adequate job of convincing myself.
So, now I was really awake because I KNOW I haven't convinced Him of anything, and if that is true, He would still be asking me to walk the path, and He and I both know I will never say "NO" to Him....but now I am REALLY SURE I can't do it!
By this point, I can't even hear what He's trying to say....I was probably still doing all the talking.
He spoke to me of another dream I had a while back. One in which He'd said, "Go down to the prophet's house and the Lord will talk to you there".
So I went to the prophet's web site that was indicated in this dream....and the Lord began to speak....(or I began to hear). He spoke His word to me, "be strong and courageous....be strong and do not be afraid"
He spoke to me of appointed times, of His being glorified in the victories.
Then, as my spirit began to overcome my flesh/mind...He reminded me of another prophet's CD that had been lent to me and that I had never listened to. She began to speak of God using the "whosoever will", not necessarily the highly anointed, highly trained, etc. Simply the willing.
I had one last whimpering argument...."Lord, I really don't want to be responsible for messing people up if I get it wrong...."
As my vain argument trailed off, I heard Him say, " LOOK AT ME! Stop looking at the circumstance, stop looking at your inabilities and simply LOOK AT ME!"
He began to tell me that He has it all set up, that if I would simply look at him, as I walk my path; if I refuse to be distracted by the circumstances, if I would refuse to look at my abilities or lack there of....if I would simply walk obediently with my eyes fixed on Him, I will look back and realize that I /WE did do it!
Truthfully, I have already proven Him forever faithful.....deep down, I know he will come through....I just need to refocus...AGAIN!
Rhonda Posted a video link to our theme song from VBS last week, "the Voice of Truth" I had to fight tears almost every time we sang it....I am posting the lyrics, because I think I need the reminder....and may again...I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.
The Voice of Truth:
Oh, what I would do
To have the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is, And he's holding out his hand
But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win, you'll never win."
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh, what I would do to have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant with just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me time and time again
"Boy you'll never win, you'll never win."
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
but the stone was just the right size to put the giant on the ground
and the waves they don't seem so high from on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says do not be afraid
And the voice of truth says this is for my glory
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe (I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
I will listen and believe I will listen and believe the voice of truth
I will listen and believe 'Causes Jesus you are the voice of truth
And I will listen to you.. oh you........
This is where I will be on Saturday.
