Friday, June 29, 2007
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Our house was quiet with all little people tucked into their beds. I began to prepare for tomorrow, the famous "last day of school!" We have all waited so long, and it has been so busy....really all month, who am I kidding? All YEAR! My preparations (in my mind), only extended through tomorrow....
We were all ready, I was beginning to wind down for the eve. when it hit me....HARD!
I AM NOT READY!!!!!
Oh, I am ready for the routines to be set aside, for long LAZY Summer days, for lots of sunshine and the anticipation of wonderful summer memories.
I am ready for us to get to do FUN things together as a family.
I am ready for our family party to celebrate the end of a very successful school year for all...and the advancement of each into a new grade....
Even in sending Maria to French Immersion in a new school,I am comforted, knowing that she will be in the secure and capable hands of her new VP...Karen's husband, Cliff.
What I have discovered that I am not ready for, is something I have been excited about all week. Something I have been so very proud of my baby for accomplishing. Something for which in the words of her principal, I was "my child's advocate". Something that I was sure she was ready for, and after meeting with her principals, realized she was more ready for than I had imagined....
Jianna graduating from JK to grade 1, without the obligatory stop over in SK.
It seems all of Jianna's desire since before Christmas, of being in grade 1, will not have to wait another year afterall. She is so excited. How did she celebrate this achievement when she found out on Monday?
By discovering in our library of children's books, what has become her very first chapter book.
She began the story of "Junie B. First Grader (at last)". How fitting for this to be her introduction to the world of chapter books.
So, for the past three days she has read.
She read while on the swings.
She read while sitting on her bed.
She read while walking to the bathroom.
She read IN the bathroom.
She read beside me on the deck, as I read.
She WANTED to read while we got groceries today.
Today, as she graduated from JK to become a 1'st grader herself, as she finished her first chapter book...
I know she does not need the second year of Kindergarten....but as the tears rolled down my cheeks, I realized that ....I DID...
I now all too clearly realized that in all my preparations, especially those to prepare Jianna to advance a year beyond her age....
I did not stop to prepare myself.
I have so enjoyed our afternoons together.
We have memories of playing at the parks, of getting groceries...and treats, of reading together, of shopping, of folding laundry together, of walks by the Bay,of baking....and of all the other mundane little tasks that she made so much more enjoyable.
As I began to get ready for bed, I realized that tomorrow is the last of those days....just the 2 of us.....and I must admitt , my heart aches, there is a very large lump in my throat making it oh so hard to swollow, and the tears flow freely, making it impossible to see the keyboard.
So, tomorrow, don't drop by the house.
I am putting everything aside for the few short hours we will have....I need to go and play with my little girl....just the 2 of us.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Joshua and Caleb's report was that this truly was their promised land...they brought back samples of the fruit..."When they reached the Valley of Eshcol, they cut off a branch bearing a single cluster of grapes. Two of them carried it on a pole between them, along with some pomegranates and figs." Numbers 13:23
That's huge fruit! Have you ever seen a "single cluster of grapes" big enough that it had to be carried by two men on a pole?
We know that they absolutely could have gone in and not only fought the giants, but they would have "possessed" the land. Caleb's declaration was "we should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it" (Numbers 13:30)....they would have won! God was on their side, so what could possibly have stopped them?
Only one thing...fear.
A fear that was brought on by how they saw themselves...very small.
This wasn't God's view of them, it was their own...what's worse is that the enemy saw them as they saw themselves... once they'd established their own view of themselves, the enemy saw them this way. Fear set in, and not even the size of the promised fruit could persuade these men to go and possess their land. It was their land already, God had promised it, but it was their job to possess it.
The story would have been so different if they had only seen themselves as God saw them.
They were His chosen people! They were mighty men of strength. They were conquerors and over comers...On top of all of that, God Himself was leading them into this battle and would have ensured the victory!
Had they only been able to catch a glimpse of who God had created them to be and to choose to see through HIS lens...they would have gone in, they would have fought the giants, possessed the land...and been able to eat of the enormous fruit that God had waiting for them.
So, how do we see ourselves?
Are we "grasshoppers in our own sight"?
Do we see ourselves as victims?
Do we see our selves as more than conquerors?!
Do we see ourselves as victorious through Him?!?!
It is so important that we take on God's view of ourselves....because THAT is the view the enemy will have of us. HE will do the shrinking back when we learn to see ourselves and ACT as God sees us.
We will be able to go and possess our promised lands and ALL of the magnificent fruit that He has provided for us in that place!
Monday, June 18, 2007
I want to remember that He has truly turned our mourning into joy...
I want to remember that He will never leave nor forsake any one of us...
I want to remember that what the enemy has intended for evil in our lives,my God is always redeeming for Good...
I want to remember that we are hidden under the shelter of His wing....
I want to remember that His plans for us are for good and not to harm us...
I want to remember that He has once again given us Beauty for Ashes...."
The Lord is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
When evil men advance against me
to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will I be confident.
One thing I ask of the Lord,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord
and to seek him in his temple.
For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle
and set me high upon a rock.
Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the Lord.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Father I call for a True Spirit of Repentance to hover heavily over our nation.
"If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land." 2 Ch 7:14
Lord I humbly pray and seek your face for Canada and the leaders...the Fathers of Canada, that you would heal our land so that as it has been prophesied repeatedly, that river of healing would then flow from Canada to the ends of the earth.